Everyone has those times in their lives when they're not really sure why they're living. For some people, this may only last a day, but for others, it could last weeks, months, or years. You know what I'm talking about, right? That feeling of, "I don't even know why God bothered with making all of these stupid people anyway." Well for me, I had one of these stages just a few months ago. It was the end of my first semester of college and I was struggling. I felt hopeless, like my life had no purpose. We went to Florida for Christmas, but during that week (especially the first part), I was a little depressed. Not like I was physically going to close myself off in a room and sit in darkness, but mentally that is how I felt. Nothing really made me excited about life. I was looking forward to going to Ukraine for a week after Christmas, but after than, then what? I was searching for the meaning of life and not getting far. I was desiring something more than j...
When I was a kid, I always had bruised knees and scabby shins. There was hardly a moment in my childhood when I was not bleeding or bruised from playing too hard with my friends. Usually, I was taking one too many hits on the two-touch football field and ending up on the ground only to get right back up, dust myself off, and do it all over again. We all did this. We all sacrificed our knees and shins and elbows for the game because we had no fear of getting hurt, no fear of bleeding out, no fear of ending up with an ugly scar. Kids are fearless little creatures who are not afraid of making the same mistake over and over-- never lacking a dull moment and never having a boring story to tell. Kids are innocently proud, never afraid or embarrassed to show off a scar and always insisting to tell the story of how each and every imperfect mark on their bodies came to be. It is a beautiful thing. But as we grow older, some of us grow out of this longing to share our scars and the stories ...
‘Best friend'. I’ve always hated that term. Why? You might ask. Because. Using the term ‘best friend’ requires picking a favorite. And I hate picking favorites. From the time I was little, I’ve been taught that picking favorites is bad. Being a church kid, I think the main reason for this comes from learning the story of Jacob and Esau. Their parents picked favorites and it did not end up well for them. I hate picking favorites. This hatred has carried through all areas of my life. From picking a favorite color to a favorite movie, to a favorite artist, I hate choosing at all. So, the idea of picking a ‘best friend’ has always seemed so exclusive and undesirable to me. “How can I pick one best friend? If I pick one, I’m leaving out everyone else!” (A statement from a people pleaser at its finest.) But as I grow older and experience life more, words and phrases tend to take on new meanings. I realized this summer the fault in the definition that our society give...
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